Saturday, August 23, 2003

First writing

whew... another day finished... It just seems that the days are passing by and they are piling up on a corner, waiting for me to sort through them like all the other clutter in my office... 

Clara is asleep on the couch... while Bala is still running around.  He's a night owl, just like me.

Anyhow, should I pile them in the car and go to the barn for the millionth time to give Prince his medicine?  I really don't feel up to it, but I know I'll feel guilty -- especially if he loses his eye.

Shit.  I'm so tired and getting through the day without Stefan is getting harder by the minute.  How can I be happy, find things to occupy my mind when he's not here?  How can I replace him - but then still have him be my #1???  That's asking a lot...

Didn't I know it would be like this when we met?  Is this the perfect life I wanted?? 

Goodnight...

FAST FORWARD TO JANUARY 2004 TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED  -  LIFE TOOK ANOTHER BIG TURN...