Call me simple, call me a masochist, a drama queen, even stupid... 

But nothing has happened for the last 2 days, no spotting, no cramping... nothing.

And today my mind finally went on a holiday and started thinking that maybe the ultrasound machine froze when it caught an image of the baby, that's why the heartbeat didn't show up.  Maybe it's true!  A fluke, a miracle, one of those stories you hear from some strange-name country in eastern Europe or Asia where an embryo with no heartbeat came back to life.  The one that has all the doctors baffled, that all the media go crazy over... 

I've never personally heard of a story equal to this, but I have heard some other crazy stuff.

Would they call him the "miracle baby" or "miracle embryo?".  Would Good Morning America and all the talk shows want to see me, to do live ultrasounds...

That would be quite awful.

But if it does happen... how will I react when I hear the news?  I wonder if it is true and there actually was a heartbeat all along and in 6 months or less I will have the baby I saw in the dream...

Ok, time to stop thinking about it.  Time to stop wondering why nothing's happening, thinking that he just doesn't want to leave me because we bonded.  I must stop feeling so dreamy about it, feeling like a little girl, naive and looking for the fairy tale ending. 

Or maybe I should go to Disney World.