Ahoy, Matey!!

I AM THE CAPTAIN!!!

Of my own boat, that is...  Every morning I wake up and I have to regulate the intake of anything that goes into my body.  If I take my meds early enough I have plenty of energy, especially if I drink a coffee.  But if I overdo the caffeine, then I get the shakes, which means I must take something to counteract those...  Sometimes I forget to take the meds early enough, so I have to lay down until they kick in, which sometimes they don't.  Then I have to take major caffeine or an energy drink (Red Bull) to see if I can get back on track. 

The rest of the day, I spend watching how I feel and making decisions like caffeine or not, strong (again Red Bull) or slow (Diet Pepsi) or something in between like coffe again and so the day goes.

I am getting very frustrated and worn out having to pretty much live for my brain as it was some kind of special needs child...  I believe this is the time when my only worries should be my children...

For example, at the moment I had to take something to stop the shakes and I can't really type anymore...  Am I feeling a bit of self-pity right now?? 

Yes I am.  And right now I think I deserve to.

In an off-color mood,

Gabriela