The Lunacy of Being

Do you ever have one of those thoughts that you know is completely irrational, borderline insane yet still fully believe it?  Or the possibility thereof??

For example:  I used to wonder if life was just about us living one person at a time.  That everyone else around me was some kind of divine entity and were not human...  They were like accessories being used by a supreme being to entice, tempt, aggravate, etc. but most of all to test us so we could be judged on our final day.  I suppose that's extremely paranoid of me, but haven't you ever wondered how coincidental it is that you could talk badly about someone else and they in turn would act as if they knew what you said all along? 

NO?? 

Oh, well me neither...

So I have lived with depression (I know how many people out there don't believe in it) for the last 18 years.  I know it's real because if severe, it affects you physically as well as mentally.  Going into anymore details seems pointless because I do not want to give it anymore time that it is worth.  I am happy to report that I'm on a happy pill (for the millionth time) and it seems to be working.  I am so energized, that I almost maniacally take on 20 projects a day, and I feel I could build a house completely on my own.  But I'll take whatever I can...

I was hell bent on not going back on medicine, then I found a therapist that trusted me when I said "I know what's wrong with me, I don't want to talk about my childhood or my problems, I have been on many different drugs, but this time I want to try Effexor, it was highly recommended by a friend".  I did have to make an appointment, and we only discussed my current situation.  She understood and respected that boredom which stemmed from endlessly talking about all the crap in my life and how tired of it I was...  so it worked out just fine.  She gave me the little paper and off to Wallgreens I went.

So far the Effexor is working, albeit with a bunch of side effects, but as I said, I'll take what I can...